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He's there for me today as well >.< idoloveyousodamnmuch <3

<3

Thanks baby, you've accompanied me eventhough you're so sleepy. I love you :*

Different

Well, i'm gonna tell you about him. He's an ordinary guy who has a pretty-bad past. We've been close since highschool. But we're now getting really closer and it's not bcos of friendship. We're in love. I see him as a guy and he does see me as a girl. We treat each other differently. He used to be like a child, but now everything has changed. He becomes mature because of that "incident". And well, that's a good point.

I love you so damn much.

Stronger

My feeling grows stronger and stronger. My heart beats fast everytime you stare at me, eventhough we only see each other via skype. I like the way you look at me that i can't take my eyes off of you. And today i'd like to say to you guys that i really love him.

Uni

The time goes by and we've all grown up. I've finally forgotten about my fail mutual-love. Now i'm not a high-school student anymore. I've graduate and become a university student. It's all about campus life... No, no, not really...since I still keep in touch with my school-mates or you can call them ones of my best friends. Distance isn't a big deal for us. Eventhough we enter the different unis and even in the different regions, we still love hanging out together. And something happened. The past is now visible and makes me feel so disappointed. But I slowly accept all those facts. And slowly, I have my eyes on him. We keep texting everyday and we're getting closer. We're actually accustomed to it before he broke up. But everything seems unusual. He treats me differently. And that's not like I dislike it... I'll tell you more someday ;)

The Fault One

It was 23 March 2013. The day when you texted me as I'm the fault one.

You said to me that I had to realize my and his condition. He said to me that he couldn't be nice to me as he used to be because of some reasons :

1. His "girl" was so jealous and angry to me. Why was she so angry? Was it because he and I were so close? Oh dude, you don't have the right to. He isn't your guy though. You never accept his confession. Come on. For me, declaration is everything. And I'm not scared of your anger, bcos I'm not wrong.

2. He said that I would love him again if he treated me just like he treated my other friends. Dude, I know myself and I know how to solve my own problem. Although I will fall for him (again) one day,  I won't tell him my feeling, unless he tells me first and decides to leave her for me.

Actually, I just wanted to tell you to act normally in front of my friends. At least don't avoid either me or my words. Don't make the other realize the strange air between us. You had chosen her and that's clear. I was hurt, but I'm not that stupid. I don't want to break our "bestfriend" status only because of "that".

I told you once again. The more you hurt me like this, the more difficult for me to forget about you.

:D

"Maybe I'm a fucking bastard by doing this. Love you too" -R (19 March 2013, 1:19 a.m.)

That was my favourite line of our short love life. It's too hard for me to forget you.

Eventhough I tried making myself busy with anything I can do, I still can't get you out of my mind. While you, I bet you have forgotten about what we've done or we've felt for each other. Ironic, huh? But that's normal since you also have somebody else to love while I don't (and I don't plan to).

:D