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Let me do a flashback

I still remember the first time you took my hand and held it when I was "pretending" to sleep. That was so warm either my hand or my heart. Then the love grew inside my heart uncontrolly.

The second time you held my hand was when we drove you to school. That time i was also pretending to sleep. Even if the weather was hot and your hand was hotter, i didn't really mind. I loved it and I wondered if we could do that for many times.

Then we started to meet each other everyday. I felt that you're so precious to me. And I hoped that something would happened to your relationship. That was cruel of me, but that was what everybody would wished if the were on my side.

We're getting closer and closer, while holding hands was just like habit for us. Then one day you told me that you loved me. That time I felt like I'm the happiest person in this world eventhough I knew that this love wouldn't go smoothly. I also knew that he wouldn't stay by my side that long. However, I didn't care and ignored everything around me.

Things went fast and he tried hard to choose whether me or her. I could clearly saw the answer from the start. But again, my ego is bigger than my rational thoughts. I fell in love too deep inside.

Finally, as what I had thought, he chose her. He said that I had to forget about my feelings toward him. Well, that was a selfish wish as I even couldn't forget about someone I had loved before for these 4 years. Yea, I was bad in forgetting someone so dear to me.

But still, I couldn't do nothing and wished all the best for their relationship.

Thanks for loving me eventhough that only lasted for a month
Thanks for letting me feel this requitted love
Thanks for letting me hold your hand
Thanks for spending your times with me

Fyi, I never slept in the car when you drove LOL
Thanks for everything :D